Lucas,
Today you are 4 months old. I had planned on writing monthly letters to you from the day you were born, but time got away from me, and I'm starting a little later than planned. You came into the world 52 minutes before your estimated due date. Talk about waiting until the last minute - it's what daddy and I do best! It was 11:02pm on December 18th that I became your mommy. You were the most beautiful (and ripe) little baby I had ever seen. The doctor pulled you out, lifted you up, and I raised my hands to take you. It was instinctual. In fact, if you watch the video, I'm holding my hands up for quite a while before they actually put you on my chest. I was ready for you. I cried so hard at that moment, because I couldn't believe you were here!! I had the easiest pregnancy, in the beginning! In the last 6 weeks I was pretty miserable. You were growing like a weed, and attempting to move in the little space you had left. It was agony. For me, and you as well I'm sure. People everywhere would stop me and say, "Boy!! You must be due any minute!!". These comments started when I still had weeks left - the looks on their faces when I'd say, "Oh no, I have a few weeks left!" was priceless. The night before you came into the world, I cried and cried because I was so ready to meet you. A few hours later, I was having contractions. God Bless you Lucas, you must have had sympathy on your poor mother. I hope you continue the trend into your adulthood! Having you in my arms after 9 whole months of growing you in all of your slendor was the most intense moment of my existence.

Your first month of life was exciting - and challenging at the same time. I was so elated to hold you in my arms, and watching you with your daddy filled me with pride. I was so grateful for our family. You were so good, and I hardly felt the "sleep deprivation" everyone spoke about. I would stare at you for hours as you moved your hands, kicked your feet, and made precious little facial expressions. Although the challenges pale in comparison, they were present. Our lives were turned upside down. Trust me, going from a married couple into a family requires some adjusting. Suddenly little tasks like going to the store were time consuming. I was nursing you every 3 to 4 hours and trying to get used to you and your moods. You were worth every moment of it though, there is no doubt about that!